Friday, September 11, 2009

September Goals and Pretending to Have a Life

So August's goals did not turn out as well as planned. But hey, I goaled and blogged. Go me.

Should we try again? I think so:

September Goals
(I'm always a little late ;)

• Blog More. Putting it first this time. We'll see if that helps.
• Break 195. The loses are coming more slowly so I'm adapting my goals.
• Walk/Jog/Bike Outside at least Once a Week. Quick quick before it gets too cold.
• Take and Post Progress Pictures. Ugh.
• Flirt with a Stranger at the Bachelorette Party.
• Double weights in BodyPump. I increase by 1.5 yesterday.

As you can see there aren't that many. I'm just trying to make it through this month. My bff from high school is getting married. I'm a bridesmaid, planning the bachelorette party (maid of honor is from another country) and making the cheesy wedding reception video. Plus working and the gym...I'm all outta goal setting.

So this weekend I am house/dog/cat/bird sitting once again. It is quite strange to randomly stay in someone else's home for days at a time every few weeks. I pack up my cats (two as of this week) and pretend being there is normal. I know what's in each kitchen cabinet. I know where all the light switches are. Its almost like its mine. But its not. I go from my simple little one bedroom apartment to their 3-story house complete with home theater. And its empty. This big house with me and a bunch of pets, pictures of their kids covering the walls. I don't have a husband, a family, a nice house, places to travel to on the weekends. I have two cats and a humble apartment. This place echos, ya know. It's lonely.

Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

August Goal Results Fail

Life is busy you know. I have a hard time keeping up with all this blogging and such as a single female; I don't know how you people with families actually accomplish anything.

So it's September. I guess that means its time to take a look back at my August goals and see how I did. I can tell you right now, its not good:

• Weight train twice a week.
I actually did this. √
• Break 190. This will get me out of the "obese" bmi and into the "overweight".
I really really did not. FAIL

• Go for a walk/jog outside, once a week. The weather is still nice; I should be taking advantage of it.
Not a single time. FAIL

• Keep kitchen clean. (This has nothing to do with weightloss but I'm really bad about it)
I did this too. √
• Blog weekly weigh-ins. I've been slacking.
Obviously not. FAIL
• Take and post progress pictures.
Nope. FAIL

• Try BodyJam or BodyAttack.
I did Jam, I did. √
• Dance to at least one song a day. And I mean embarrass your friends dance.
Negative. FAIL

As for weight loss, I weighed on Tuesday. I'm still at 203. With the complete trash I ate the last two weeks...I'm happy with this. I was sure I'd gained many of those hard lost lbs back and would have to start over again. It took major convincing for to even get myself on that scale. I was so scared. But sure enough, my body was on my side for once. Thank you BodyCombat obsession. Thank you.

I need to write more. I have a lot to write about. But sadly, once again, I have not the time. I'm actually still at work. (*Shhhhh*)

Have a good Labor Day Weekend everyone. It's pouring rain here :)

Thanks for reading.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Random thoughts from people our age

Disclaimer: I did not write this, though I wish I had. The blog I found this on also claims to not be the author. Since google search attempts to find the origin have failed, I have copy-pasted directly for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy.

-I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

-More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.

-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

-I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they've invented the lighter?

-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

-That's enough, Nickelback.

-I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know" feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?

-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

-There is a great need for sarcasm font.

-Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.

-I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.

-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

- I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.

- A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

- Was learning cursive really necessary?

- Lol has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".

- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.

- My brother's Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, "Cuz we beat you, and you hate us." Classy, bro.

- Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

- How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

- I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

- Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in' examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"

-What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

- While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

- I would like to officially coin the phrase 'catching the swine flu' to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an overweight woman. Example: "Dave caught the swine flu last night."

-I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

- Bad decisions make good stories

-Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!

- Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.

-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be a problem....

-You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.

-There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

-I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

- "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

-I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't watching this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'

-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

-When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

-Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...

- As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

-Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

-I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

-Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.

-Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time...

-My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?

-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

-I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

-The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There's nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Weightloss Plateau and the Green-Eyed Monster

So lately I've been afraid to face the scale. I've made these goals, and I met some, but then I gained that extra one or two back. Sometimes my "fattie friends'" tweets & blogs help inspire me but other times I'm jealous of their success and my failure. Don't get me wrong, they're completely supportive but jealousy sometimes makes me blind to that. I have to remind myself that everyone is different and someone else's way might not work for me and my life. I'm working on it.

So that said, I'm hovering about 203, sometimes reaching 205. My brief visit to Onederland seems like a distant memory. I'm stuck. I haven't been so strict on with my food. I have increased the intensity and fequency of my workouts though. Its like my body has just decided, "I'm going to be this way whether you like it or not. Doesn't matter what you do, I'll adapt." Well you know what body? You KNOW WHAT?!? Okay, I don't know what I'm going to do, but something...

For now all I can do is keep at it, try to make good choices, and silence the green-eyed monster.

Off to wal-mart now to check out the selection of clearance workout clothes as mentioned by the beautiful and fabulous miss Chubby Stubby Kay.

Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

What Week Am I On Again?

Look What I made :)

Get your own graph at skinnyr

So I made it to Onederland for an hour or so. Right now I'm hovering about 203 and I'm okay with that. Especially after seeing my Skinnyr graph and how far I'm already come.

I have set a few goals for this month:

August Goals

• Weight train twice a week.
• Break 190. This will get me out of the "obese" bmi and into the "overweight".
• Go for a walk/jog outside, once a week. The weather is still nice; I should be taking advantage of it.
• Keep kitchen clean. (This has nothing to do with weightloss but I'm really bad about it)
• Blog weekly weigh-ins. I've been slacking.
• Take and post progress pictures.
• Try BodyJam or BodyAttack.
• Dance to at least one song a day. And I mean embarrass your friends dance.

Okay, I think that's about it. This week is going to be, I don't want to say slow at work, but it will be lower impact that the last few so I'll have ample energy to put into my workouts. I'm excited.

I need to get my Bridesmaid dress altered but I'm worried about getting it fit too soon and then losing more weight, but I don't want to wait too long and risk it not being ready in time or there be a problem and no time to fix it. The wedding is the last weekend in September. What do I do?

Thanks for reading.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

A Visit to Onederland

Current weight: 201 ...ish

The UpSide
On Friday, my friend and I did the Power90 Level 3/4 Sculpt workout. I've only ever done Level 1/2 before but it was only 35mins & pretty mellow for me compared to the intense BodyCombat I'm used to. Well, I was in his bathroom fixin to get in the shower and I saw his scale. I only let myself weigh on Tuesdays but it was such a cool looking digital scale and I was curious. I took off my shoes and hopped on. It danced around the single 2s and upper 190s and stopped....on 199.6! What? So I hopped off and tried again...199.6! I didn't believe it, I called for my friend and made him come look. I wanted to jump up and down but I didn't. I smiled and tried to suppress it. See, he has been losing weight as well, but that very morning had been talking about throwing away his scale, frustrated at recent gain. I didn't want to rub my success in. But he's so amazing. He knew I was excited and told me it was okay. He's always so happy for me. We celebrated with vegetarian pizza and RockBand. Oh, and the post shower bottle of water put me back over, but that's okay. I was there!

The DownSide
So have you seen these disgusting rubbery representations of 5lbs of fat? Well I've lost 23 lbs, thats almost 5 of those. And I just don't see it. I feel better, that's for sure, and I do see a little difference but not 23 blubbery pounds worth. I'm also wearing the same size 14/16 clothes I had when I started. They do look better on me but...?????

I'm getting frustrated but I'm not giving up. This is my life now. And I'm really not sacrificing as much as I used to on "diets". The other day I gave in and picked up Taco Bell on the way home. I enjoyed it but I didn't overeat and the next day was the day I dropped under 200. I can eat good, healthy foods, actually feel full, and still lose weight. I just have to make sure I work it off. No problems there; I've become workout obsessed. It's all a routine. I'm in this for the long haul.

Thanks for reading.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Some Catch Up with a Dab of Mustard

So I haven't blogged in a bit. I haven't done much of anything but work. I just calculated and I had 55 hours before today. Long days of hard work. My feet and muscles are killing me but I had to have been burning lost of calories, right?

I only got to hit the gym once this week. BodyCombat. Love it still.

I finished the 6 Day Slim Down which resulted in a 5lbs loss in the past two weeks. Woohoo, however 4 of those pounds don't count b/c they were the ones gained back over the 4th. So down 1 more pound overall. That's a total loss of 18lbs.

Current weight: 205

My eating was not as strict this week b/c of my hectic schedule. We were so busy Wednesday that I did not eat at all. I had a protein shake for breakfast and that was it. There just was no time! Its the nature of my job.

We did have a lunch break yesterday and I had a teriyaki chicken rice bowl. I didn't get the combo w/ crab puffs and eggroll and I didn't eat the whole thing like a I wanted to. It was so good! For dinner we had Mexican food (yes the work day was that long) and I had tacos instead of the combo plate I would have had. I may have gone a little crazy on the chips but I know I probably burned that off running from the helipad, through the hospital, across the parking lot, and back to get something off our truck.

My sister is coming to stay with me for the weekend. I'm super excited. I will be forcing her to do BodyCombat with me tomorrow. I hope I don't kill her but will reward her efforts w/ Belgium waffles.

Sorry so fragmented.
This is not the time to worry about time. We don't have the time...

Thanks for reading

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Before Pics - Warning: Not for the Squeamish

Here are my before pictures. Wow, as I typed that sentence the skys opened up into terrential downpour. Coincidence?

There. It's done. Phew. Off to Combat :)


Friday, July 10, 2009

Day 4 of the 6 Day Slim Down From Hell

Okay, so it may not be as bad as the title suggests but it sucks.Thank gawd its only for 6 days. I'm hungry all the time. I'm hungry while I'm eating. After I'm done eating I look up what I eat next and when I can eat it. I crave real food. I crave being full. I love being full. Its one of the best feelings in the world.

Regard the one meal that filled me up:

Broccoli Mushroom Eggwhite Omelet (mine always end up scrambled)

It doesn't help that my Friend is on day 5 and will not stop talking about what he would prefer to be eating. Sometimes we help each other but sometimes we hinder. Boo.

Working out is going great. I wanted to quit Combat so bad Wednesday night but I didn't. I stuck it out through the whole thing. I think I will try BodyJam next, once I can get up the nerve. I'm not much for dancing in front of people. When Stephenie Meyer created Bella Swan, I'm pretty sure she modeled her after me. (For you non-nerds out there, that means I'm uncoordinated....and pale.)

I just now read the comments ya'll (yes, I'm southern) have left on my other posts and thanks to encouragement from the lovely miss Chubby Stubby K, I will be posting my before pictures sometime this weekend. Maybe I'll even post an update pic with them. I don't think I look any different but I've had a few say they can tell I've lost weight. Whatev. I just say Thank You and save my eyes roll for later.

Anyway...thats enough of a lunch break. Back to work.

Thanks for reading

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Jump Start- The 6-Day Slim Down

Okay, after the 4th I have some ground to regain. I'm going to control+Z this bitch (that's Edit>Undo for you PCs out there) and jump start my metabolism. I've decided to try the 6-Day Slim Down that is a part of the Hip-Hop Abs workout DVDs. I've never done the DVDs, just borrowed the meal plan from a friend who has them. BTW, he says that though you may look and feel ridiculous doing the workouts, they seem to be very effective. May have to try it sometime. I don't encourage crash diets or 48 hour miracle drinks or anything like that. The pamphlet clearly states that this is not recommended for more than 6 days and for good reason. The body needs more carbs (more than 0) and more calories for long term than this program contains. This is just to get me back on track and where I was two weeks ago.

The best part about this is that I get smoothies every day for breakfast. I'm on Day 2 and my smoothie this morning, strawberry banana, tasted so good! I think it may be the protien powder that my body isn't used to, but they make my stomach a little upset for a bit after I eat/drink them. This has happended both days right after breakfast. And no, I'm not pregnant. Hopefully I'll get used to it. At least its not as bad as say eating too much at the chinese buffet. Bleuqck.

Last night I went to the launch of BodyCombat 40. It kicked my fat butt. I don't usually get so sore from that class, just worn out. Not this time. I'm walking like an old woman today. When do these workouts stop hurting?

Well I'm going to finish up this Tuna Garden Salad and get back to work.

Thanks for reading

Monday, July 6, 2009

July 4th Weekend Poor Self-Control

My weekend eating went to crap. I did great Thursday night passing on pizza at a friend's house & picking up Subway for myself. Friday, my day off, pretty good all day. Even at the "I Love America" celebration I shared a Turkey leg two others instead of the "India Taco" and funnel cake that looked REALLY good. What is an India Taco anyway?

Then comes Saturday. I sleep in only slightly. Get up. Scramble myself a single egg before BodyCombat. I expected class to be empty. Man was I wrong. I guess the other location of the gym I attend was closed b/c everyone from our normal Saturday class was there, plus a bunch of people I'd never seen who were apparent regulars at the North location. 5 instructors showed up to group teach the class. It only takes one but they made an event out of it all wearing patriotic workout garb and assembling a mix of songs containing the words: boom, bang, star, or America. For fireworks...GET IT? :)

After the gym was the family meal at my apartment this year. I guess it wasn't too terrible of unhealthy selections. Various sausages, green beans, vegetarian baked beans, corn on the cob, and fairly healthy Grandma's green jello salad (cottage cheese, nuts, crushed pineapple, lemon/lime sugar-free jello). The only problem was that I at 4 sausages! I just simply took a not too bad thing and ate too much! I felt terrible about it afterwards.

To make matters worse I went All-American and attended a baseball game. At said baseball game Nachos and Cheese were consumed, and after Andy's Frozen Custard. Dumb dumb dumb.

I cannot let myself indulge like that. It didn't make me feel good. Even as I was eating it I couldn't enjoy it. All I was thinking was how many steps back this puts me. I justified in my head that I already blew it, might as well go all out. Note: never do this!

So I'm skipping my usual weigh-in. I know I screwed up and I don't need to see that number and get discouraged. That's what happened last week and I think that's why I fell so far at the first sign of temptation.

Okay, enough poor me. I'm off of here. Hopefully my next post will be about how good I'm doing and how great I feel.

Thank you for readin

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Week 3 Weight Gain Results in Dumb Gym Decision, Muscles Revolt

I've started a blog! w00t. I'm actually at work right now. I'm taking a quick break . Shhh, don't tell anyone.

So I am in the middle of week 4 of my journey. Quick update so far:

Starting weight: 217 lbs
Week 1 weight: 210.2 lbs
Week 2 weight: 206 lbs
Week 3 weight: 210.5 (son of a bitch)

So I've been doing LesMills workout classes at my gym. I've been a member for over two years and never done a class b/c I'm kinda chicken when it comes to doing new things alone. My boss' wife/my other boss joined the same gym. So when I started this journey we started going to a class or two together each week.

LOVE love love, BodyCombat and semi-kinda like BodyPump though it makes me so sore!

I am going to blame my week 3 gain back on the fact that I missed BodyCombat that Saturday and had a piece of birthday cake w/ ice cream. My body hates me so thats all it takes aparently. I know this is a long journey but its discouraging nonetheless. How in the world do I gain weight from...that!?!

Well, the weight gain pissed me off / motivated me. Motivated me to a fault. I did both Combat and Pump last night at the gym. Back to Back. 2 hours Straight. I think I'm dead. I feel dead. Not healthy.
Note to self: Don't be stupid!

I'm recovering by the pool with Subway and my best friend later. In a swimsuit. Yeah, whatcha gonna do about it? Chubby girls deserve pools too. I'm gonna do my best to own that suit. Fake confidence is still confidence right?

Thank you for reading

PS-I'll post before pictures later. If I can bring myself to do it.